Not Pregnant

This cycle is another bust! I'm not pregnant. I was actually looking forward to possibly being pregnant with twins. We would have our family.
I spoke to my doctor in San Antonio and he is getting me started on all the meds for our last round of In-vitro. They start on Wednesday, so hormones here I come!!! I'm so tired of the hormones controlling me and taking over my face. I just pray this last round works so please keep us in your prayers. And, say a prayer especially for Kevin as he has to endure the mad woman that I become:)

Half way through 2 week wait

The 2 week wait is the worst. It's the 14 days I have to wait to test to see if I'm pregnant. The first few days was easy. Then, I started to get anxious, reading into every cramp, twinge, mood swing, etc. A few days ago, I spent the evening with very close friends. There were 3 infants from 1 month to 8 months old. I was holding one of them while talking to my friend and I briefly started to cry. I guess it's all the hormones running through my body. I got over it quickly and just enjoyed holding all these kids. Then, I just saw that TLC show, "I didn't know I was pregnant" and a 57 year old lady had a healthy daughter. I can tell you some of the emotions I have are angry, sad, confused and frustrated. One of my friends has a beautiful little girl who got pregnant on the IUD. I just feel like she is a little miracle and I don't understand why I can't be blessed with my own little miracle.
I have been having cramps that are just like aunt flow is about to visit. I am also breaking out and being a little witch to my poor hubby. I don't think this round worked. I am staying positive, but based off my latest symptoms, I think this IUI failed. I am supposed to test on Friday. We'll see what happens:)

Egg retrieval was cancelled

We got here and was brought back to the OR right away. I was in my hospital gown with the butt open to the back. Right before they were going to start my IV, Dr wanted to do one more ultrasound to make sure I didn't ovulate on my own, since my E2 kept dropping. We saw it in his face and heard it in his voice.......I had ovulated. He said we could still procede, but we knew we shouldn't. He then suggested doing an IUI instead. We had everything we needed, so we went for it. Remember, we did 5 IUI's before with Clomid. This IUI is different. We have more eggs. It's not a guarantee, but it's a shot. I personally don't feel it will work since the last 5 didn't work, but there is always that chance.so, now we are in the 2 week wait. If this doesn't work, it's more shots, ultrasounds, shots again and hopefully a retrieval. I was upset and cried some but I think all my tears are gone from crying the other night.
First thing Kevin did was take me to the cafe downstairs to get some food and a muffin while we waited to do the IUI. The IUI is complete, now were off to the Alamo and to get some real food.

We are in San Antonio

I am starving. No food or watet after midnight last night. I have enjoyed our trip up here, trying not to think about it. Please pray for many mature eggs that will make it to a little healthy Reese.

Day before egg retrieval

We have been trying to have children for almost 3 years now. After years of trying and many procedures and surgeries for Scarlet, we hit a wall. We found a wonderful specialist who is helping us with in-vitro. We've been doing injections the past 3 weeks, twice a day. Kevin has been a wonderful nurse, ha ha. He gave me most of my injections. That has not been pleasant at all. I've had an ultrasound and blood work every other day for a week during my injections. Everything was going wonderful, until 3 days ago. My estradiol (E2) level is dropping. I am growing follicles, many many follicles. I have 12 on my right and 9 on my left. The Dr said I was responding well to the injections but my E2 kept dropping. My Dr suggested at one point that we cancel this cycle. I was a wreck. I couldn't stop crying. After another ultrasound and more bloodwork, he said based off the growth of my follicles, he thinks we should go forward. He has seen women have successful pregnancies with low E2, but there is always a chance it won't work. I may not have mature eggs. Kevin and I thought long and hard and decided to follow the Dr.'s suggestion and we are going for it. It's a gamble, but we won't know anything unless we do it. So, tomorrow, we go back to San Antonio for the egg retrieval. It's a 30 minute out patient procedure. They will attempt to fertilize all the eggs and wait to see if they grow. The procedure will be at 11:30 am tomorrow. We will keep everyone posted once we get a call from the Dr to see if we had viable eggs. Wish us luck and keep us in your prayers.